Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Getting Old

Male Common Whitetail Dragonfly who came to visit our pond

So the question--how "old" is "OLD"? Ask my kids and they will, in unison, shout out numbers that I vaguely remember. When I was in high school, I can distinctly remember (yeah--I DO still remember back that far) penning my "life goals" for an English assignment. The upshot was that by the time I hit the ripe old age of 30, I would be independently wealthy, own my own very LARGE home and have a boy toy with whom I would spend weekends at the beach. Ah how life throws a curve! Now, at 45, I am fighting adult-onset allergies that are damn near debilitating (one day at the park=at least a day in the airconditioning, recuperating), I have a six year old who thinks she's 26 (can you say "spoiled"?), and my boys (12 and 14) are experiencing teenage angst that renders them not only miserable, but also contentious. Ah, the joys of aging. What truly concerns me, though, is the flip side of that coin--I am still terrified of elevators, I abhor going to the dentist and violent thunderstorms find me hiding beneath at least two layers of blankets. Now does that SOUND old?? Aren't those things you "outgrow" when you GET old? I thought that was one of the bonuses of the whole "natural progression" thing. Perhaps I've been robbed.

I suppose I am, indeed, middle aged at this stage of the game, and it's pervasive. I find myself glaring at 20-somethings, scantily dressed with big boobs (jealousy is a horrible state of affairs); my knees ache after a day at the mall (I blame it on my oldest son--I gained the most weight during pregnancy with him); and my dream of a boy toy has been replaced with the contentment of being a wife and mother (of course my husband IS quite the sexy beast). I get a kick of identifying the bugs in my yard (true story), shooting photos of dragonflies (attached one for ya), and pondering over what to make for dinner (honest, I am finally COOKING a little!!).

And so I return to where I began this post--and I honestly would like to know; how "old" is "OLD"?

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